the year of magical thinking

i've just started reading The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion (page 55). It's heavy. The press release letter said that it has an uplifting aspect, which obviously i haven't gotten to.

but already i can say that it deserves all its accolades. On one hand her descriptions about grief are so numbingly eloquent. You just want to absorb her words from a craft standpoint. And on the other hand, because they are so eloquent, you want to forget them as soon as you read them because you don't want to visit or revisit such pain.